How to Live your Life from today!

Hello, How’s your school day ?

School is a place to learn, to study. Kinder Garten to University ? 

Remember when you are just so young, a baby, you learn to laugh, to eat, to talk, to walk? We don’t have it in curriculum on what everyone called school..

Everyday on your life is a school, everyday we learn and study about everything! It’s just in “school” we are being teach by a teacher, a lecturer, they lead us. But in real life, you learn everything even there is one lead you or you should lead yourself. Learn to know the society, everything.

Our topic today is not about school, it’s about life. Learning to know your real life.

When I was 15 my mom left me, she got a cancer and back to where she belong only 5 days after she diagnosed to have a cancer. When my mom sick I still have a mood to hang out with my friends all day. Why ? Is it because I don’t understand ? or I don’t care ? I was 15 I think it’s enough to understand my mom situation but why ? I don’t accompany her in home , I don’t take care of her. And now she’s gone, and I regret ? regret won’t turn back things. Isn’t it ? Only if I could wash my mind that time and care to my family. I Wouldn’t be regret as I did know.

Back then, a year after my mom left me. It’s my dad turn. He died of pneumonia caused by ciggarate.

I had a bad quarrel with my dad few days before he passed. Because he don’t wanna feed by me but my sister! Yes, I was mad that day L But I can’t think that he was sick so I should understand. I choose to be quiet. I don’t talk to him.. What kind of daughter I am ?

Thinking back of those time make me feel so sad and regret. But regret won’t change anything.

All that I know now I should be better. I won’t do that silly things that will make me regret all my life.

And for those who doesn’t treat your parent, your family good. Maybe now you hate them, but remember.. they take care of you, do everything for you. When you are a little baby and cry the whole night, they take care of you, they never complain. You took their bed time. They don’t sleep well. One day if you lose them, you’ll regret, just like me. Don’t let regret be too late. Love your family, Be a better person now J

Lovey,

Cessa ♥